haish..
i just suddenly thot abt me, being emotional.
in derr past,,
usually can hold back my tears very easily de larh...
but now,,
it seems so hard to do so..
i rmb in an event,,
my stuff were being snatched by my classmates,,
those stuff were act some sort of reward as i did smth good for derr teach...
i almost cried luhhs...
it was like,,
i was surrounded by many classmates,,
then they keep shouting and stretching out their hands and yelling,,
asking me to give them my "rewards".
at that time,,
i almost cried,,
i was afraid that i'd really cry,
so i gave them ALL lorrs.... )`:
i really,, am afraid of crying infront of everyone derr...
when i was even younger,,
probably abt 9 years old??
everytim i kena scolded or nagged at,,
i cry under my desk after that....
now,, i cant hold back my tears; i cry right infront of my family...
sometimes,,if im unlucky,, and im outside,,
of course derr public is where i would be crying...
i rmb in another event,,
which happened long ago...
one sat night(i suppose)
my parents wanted me to go to my aunt's house on sunday,,
den i refused to do so...
i kinda disliked dat aunt back den...
cos she nagged at me alot back then.
I HATE NAGGINGS& KPOS,,
(she's nurt really a KPO larhs...)
like as if any child would like dat..
so i kept saying "i dun wan..i dun wan"
den my parents didnt bother..
so i started crying.
and i cried damn long luhhs.
and damn loudly,,
i even cried in derr living room...
my cousins,, and two other aunts were there too...
derr whole table was like, WET.
that's how emotional i was..
and now,, im probably 50% more emotional den last time. XD
i havent cried in school;infront of my friends yet..
but who knows???
maybe a cheeky,bad boy will make me cry sooner or later....
oh yah,,
i forgot,,
last year,,
when i knew i would be in a diff class from my BFFs,,
i cried infront of them..
in class...
me and ally got emo and cried when we knew abt being seperated into diff classes...