ii thot ii cudd andd hav qott over *iit,,
but ii quess i cantt...
there iis nno way ii cann force myself tto ddo so...
iim sorry...
tto those who made effort tto encouraqe andd briqhten mme upp...
but ii quess...
all ur efforts hav qone iin vain...
ii quess ii cann nvr bbe happy...
what ii wann cann nvr bbe...
ii so hate myself...
ii wonder,,
who made mme become such ann emotional-self?
why didd ii become so sadd iin tthe inside everyday?
when didd iit happen?
then ii rmb...
since two mths aqo...
thatt person...
that person who made mme so confusedd of mmy feelinqs...
thatt person who evolvedd this fupidd emotions iin mme `sadness,pain,fear
as days passedd bby...
these feelinqs increasedd rapidly...
chanqinq who ii usedd tto bbe iin the inside...
ii cudd hav forqotten everythinqq;
andd went onn with mmy life...
mmy life of perfect llove andd friendship;
but perhaps tthat "perfect llove" wasnt thatt perfect...
andd then this oth person hadd tto rubb iit iin......
makinqq mme rmb that oniie portion of the past ii hate...
makinqq mme jealous andd feell so torturedd...
at first,,
ii wudd oniie cry,,when mmy parents accusedd mme,,
then,,
ii criedd when ii felt so stressedd,,
now,,
ii wudd cry when ii rmb all these...
when ii am allone at home...
iidd lay iin mmy bedd,,
andd think...andd think...
then tears wudd start rollinqq down mmy face...
tthe biqqest mistakes ii made iin my life link tto what has happenedd...
they made drastic chanqes iin mmy life...
ohh holy qawd...
when will a beam of liqht shine iin...
andd show thatt ii donn hav tto qive a damn tto how close they are...
andd show thatt ii donn hav tto karre whether tthe oth person karres abt mme...

andd,,
umm,,
sorry peepuh,,
thatt ue all keep taqqinqq mme andd then ue donn receive any taqqs from mme...
ii llove bloq-surfinqq,, andd taqqs;
but ii dreadd taqqinqq...
so,,iits okayy iif ue all wanna stop taqqinqq as ii donn taqq ue all,,
ue noe...iits abit selfish tto expect peepuh tto taqq ue non-stop,,
when ue donn taqq em.
but rest assuredd ii visit every siinqle person's bloqq REGULARLY,,
as lonqq as ii link thatt person. [[: