now ...____ has wonn ,____ has finally obviously beaten me .
theyre gone ...all gone ...just what hav ii done wrongg ...
ii really feell like cryingg ...
these tears ...
until now ,those who hav stood bby me,been my true sisters are:
SHILIN ,NERISSA ,VANESSA ,TINGFANG ,VIVIAN ,DENISE .
they are peepuh whom ii noe ,ii will rmb forever .
ii really dont noe why those whom ii CHERISH hav to leave me ,
or ddo things thats obviously against me ...
why did ii even hav to noe them when they'd bbe gone someday ?
whats the point ...?
today ,
me ,shilin ,tingfang ,vane ,neri went to lot1 .
perhaps ,goingg to lot1 was nno longer interestingg to us anymore .
perhaps ,nno boys or nort many peepuh joint us ,yet ,ii felt the HAPPIEST ever .
ii felt that very CLOSE ; HAPPY feelingg that iid nvr felt before .
ii cudd tok with ease ,nort like any outs iid been to .
that friendship we share ,iis better than any oth friendships iive had .
ii felt happy ,ii enjoyed those laughs ii hadd .
we toked our hearts out ;we laughed toqeder ,we hadd krazii times .
the great time we hadd there ,
iis just ,more than words ,iit iis simply undefinable .
pick any single friendship ii hav except for them ,
ii cann tell uu ,iit isnt a genuine one .
let me give uu ann example .
TWO girls iin my life .
iif any of the TWO were nort present ,
the girl left ,wudd findd me ,
she'd ask me to accompany her here andd there ,
she'd speak to me for the whole dday .
she'd play with me .
but ,iif both were present ,
they'd bbe accompanyingg each oth here andd there ,
they'd NORT speak to me for more than two sentences .
lets say ii were to bbe with them ,
and one of the girls wanns to qqo to the toilet ,
she'd ask the oth girl to accompany her ,
then ,they'd leave just like that .
leavingg me ALONE iin that place .
nort even karringg to inform me anyth .
nort even botheringg to ask me to qqo as well .
nort even karringg abt my feelinggs .
leavingg me allone there like some kinda idiot standingg there for show .
BEST FRIENDS iindeed ;
they hav nno idea how hurt ii hav been feelingg for the past few mths .
another so called BEST FRIEND ii hav .
beingg with her ,just bringgs me UNHAPPINESS ,FEAR ,SADNESS .
MANY peepuh iin my life ,
they brought me those dark times iive hadd ,
andd iive hadd enough of iit ,far more than ENOUGH .
forget abt everyth ,tok abt the most present PRESENT .
as ii saidd today ii went lot1 .
denise andd vivian cuddnt join us ):
we went to the arcade to play
-ii almost gort addicted to the games there llaw .
then we hadd early dinner ;at the foodcourt .
tingfang ; xingann cuddnt join us ,she needed to qqo home .
ii felt so sadd ,one important person gone ... ):
andd ii cudd feell she was sadd ;we all did .
then we toked our hearts out at the foodcourt .
we toked abt our future andd this andd that ,almost everyth .
we toked abt one particular person we disliked .
we toked abt neri&garyphua .
we toked abt how well we were doingg .
we toked abt PSLE .
we toked abt 10DECEMBER ;iim goingg to hold a "G R A N D get-toqeder" .
we toked abt a ladiie .
we toked abt so many thinggs ii forgort some lle ...
andd then we hadd a BET .
we betted onn who wudd bbe the first to hold hands with their steadd
-when we are TEENAGERS .
the persons who betted wrongly has to ddo a forfeit or whatever uu call iit .
ii chose shilin ,shilin chose vanessa ,vanessa chose nerissa ,nerissa chose me :D
well ,then we hav to wait till our secondary sch life comes llaw . 0.0
very longg way to qqo .
andd then we discussed abt which sch we wanted to qqo .
nobody came to a decision .
but we decided that we wuddnt choose UNITY&KRANJI .
iim sure ure thinkingg that we are krazii ...
but nvm cos iif peepuh were nort to bbe krazy for once they wuddnt bbe normal ...
to me larhs :D
anw iim goingg to ddo smth to my blogg .
sometime .
nort goingg to say what . (x
anw bet uu nno interest iin what iits gonna bbe .
andd ,me ,neri ,andd vane wudd like to add shilin iin our _iin1 group .
any members hav objections ?
anw ,of cos ii still llove my llovely sistas: ALYSSA ,TRACY ,PEARLYN ,MAY...etc...
"llast andd very least".
to those batch of peepuh .
stopp sheddingg crocodile tears .
stopp pretendingg .
andd to that dear guy out there ,
stopp fakingg ur intentions ,
stopp pretendingg that uu karre abt me .
iid rather uu just head alongg with her ;
than pretendingg that uud choose me over her .
ur llies are all comingg out alrdy .
thx to her ii finally noe uu just llied to me .