Ehk ,.
Came home early for th sake of using comp to do someths , heh .

Hmm . .
School was quite okay .
Except that Mrs Chai told e class someth about _____ class blog .
Toots luhxz . .
Im suggesting th probability of an " imposter " .
Andandand , that crapper-ben also kept irritating me .
I needed to do maths corrections y'know D:
During recess , Xiaodi was sitting beside me .
Then Jason Ng , Dill[i]on and Jeffrey kept pulling him over to don know where .
Xiaodi was practically screaming all th time luhxz :D
After a while Jason was like , threatening Xiaodi or what ?
E more Jason threatened , e more Xiaodi kept shifting towards where I was sitting :D
Funny luhxz .

Yesterday " confessed " my thoughts to Shilin .
Lollies ; she didnt understanding what I truly meant siia .
Anyway , see my update wish list ?
Yesyesyes , I seriously need a soulmate .
One to chat on phone with me , slack with me , hangout with me , go out with me .
One to accompany me to places I go .
One to spend studying with .
One whom I can call " bestfr " .
Jus like how Denise & Nerissa plus Xinyin & Vanessa are .
[ Plus other friends in my life like - Jyn Hua and Mayfang etc ]
They're like , best partners in friendship ?
Always doing stuff together .
How I envy them . .
I've no one to really share my secrets with .
I now am almost suffocating myself with all those troubles of mine siiol .
Sorry for being this frank or straightforward . .
But I've been trying to keep this to myself for months lurh . .
Y'know , during Lollies gatherings , th sisters will usually be split into groups naturally .
Vanessa and Xinyin will go some place alone .
Followed by Nerissa and Denise going some place alone .
Then eccentras .
Then Im left alone sometimes actually .
I've no grudges against th Lollies .
In fact , I love them as much as before [:
Its jus that , I seriously feel upset whenever e partners go away .
It always reminds me of not having a true soulmate .
Not having a bestfr-partner like they all so that lone is kept away .
I envy some other girls too [ strangers yeah ] .
They have another girl who spends th time with them everyday .
And each and every post or picture includes those other girls .
Andandand , they can put that other girls' name and say . .
" She's my bestfr / soulsister [ etc ] " .
But there's no one I can relate to in this manner in my life .
Seems like centuries since I had a bestfr like that .
I seriously wonder when those days will come back . .
So that I have someone to walk e paths down with . .
All e stuffs about me wanting a new life , new change , new me and all .
All th stuffs about don bother me eccentra .
All about hoping for a better life . .
Partly cos of this durh . .
SOBBS ~ )'x
[ Don misunderstand that e Lollies ,
or other (listed)sisters/brothers(under e 'relationship') aint important to me can . T Y ,. ]

I guess thats about it . .

Dotesandloves to Lady C. ! Hahas ,.
BLEAH .